I just read from one of my favorite newsletters (Wealest) that everything becomes clearer in terms of what to do when we think in multiple years rather than the next few months. It seems like common sense, but I've always stayed afar from thinking too long term - as I didn't know for sure what I wanted. But as I'm getting my hands dirty, I keep reminding myself that I don't need to keep changing what I'm currently doing. I realize that whatever you have chosen, you can bring a lot of good as long as you're inspired and always bringing in good vibes. I also realize that everything is about people and the dynamics and curating the environment to what you want and the world to look more like. As a founder said on Twitter, the world is filled with passion projects. But talking with C, he made me realize that it is also built out of needs. He is old school macho-ego man who had his principles down to earth and realistic, and he is completely right; there is always the foundation of people who build the world with sticks and fires for others to “play” around. That was the difference in our values - I saw the world in a rose lens whereas he saw it as something that needs to be improved and bettered instead of always creating something new. I think we would have made a good team. But I still didn't quite grasp a strong feeling for him; my intuition is telling me this is a perspective I want to share with my partner still.
Walking away from the pier on our separate ways, I'm realizing that I must get my mind off him. Then I run into my dear friend and her boyfriend, and we get into wicked willy and down a cold beer and dance off to rock and hip hop and throwback jay-z and queen on sticky wooden planks. This is the day-to-day life I've been living since april, but after this night, my motivation to bring back open mics and curate a musical environment springs back into my heart, and I want to do everything to create the most fun community. I want to build cocktails, play the drums, host bands, make coffee, fix and sew my shirts, and write essays. I want to dedicate my entire life to giving everyone a chance to have fun, showcase their creations, share their love for music, meet each other, make friends, and overall build a safe and inspiring environment. This is what I want out of life, and I will do anything to get there.
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