Anger

As a type nine on the Enneagram, I have come to realize that I am prone to anger. This would surprise most people who are not my parents and very close friends, because I tend to immediately suppress or deny my anger. Most of the time, this is fine. I've developed an amusing tendency to forget things quickly.



But there is a fine line between forgetting and telling myself I've forgotten something. A thin border dividing the release of anger and the neglect of it. My friends who are type ones will tell me that anger can seldom be released without expression; I don't agree but I do think it takes practice and care to do effectively.



I have some anger towards people whom I've allowed to grow too close to me in the past. People whom I allowed to siphon life force from me, who drew me into their whirlpools of negative or self-destructive energy. I am not condemning these people in any way. I bear sole responsibility for attracting them into my life and for letting my energy intermingle with theirs.



I wanted to fix them; I wanted to be the person to save them from themselves. I now know that a person can only be saved by themselves. That I can give them the keys, but that only they can unlock their self-imposed cages. So now, my solution is to distance myself from these folks, and to trust that if and when the stars have realigned, we will reconnect.



Anger is a powerful emotion, and I've felt it consuming my life force recently. It's time to feel my way towards a tried-and-true method for releasing it.